"Always say I'm gonna change; I never do"

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Bad Storm

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"Sad Fuck"

I'm a sad fuck
Self sabotage and I mess things up
Always in my feelings and my head too much, yeah
But I don't always wanna be a sad fuck
Looking for excuses to not show up
Always feeling like I'm never good enough, yeah
I don't always wanna be a sad fuck

Yeah
I have bad nights, but I'm not a bad guy (Duh)
Billie Eilish, I'ma make your mama sad type
And I've been doing well, but I get overwhelmed
As soon as I compare myself to everybody else
Why's it always when I close my eyes?
Overthinking and I don't know why
I'm not saying that I hate my life
I just wish that I was happy sometimes, 'cause

I'm a sad fuck
Self sabotage and I mess things up
Always in my feelings and my head too much, yeah
But I don't always wanna be a sad fuck
Looking for excuses to not show up
Always feeling like I'm never good enough, yeah
I don't always wanna be a sad fuck

Yeah, yeah
Always say I'm gonna change
I never do, everything is overdue
Running like everyday
Overthinking every move (Hey!)
"What you sad for, who you feeling bad for?"
"Why you so upset when you got everything you ask for?"
Ain't it funny how they think I'm fine?
Just 'cause I got everything they see online
Now, I'm not saying that I hate my life
(I just wish that I was happy sometimes, 'cause)

I'm a sad fuck
Self sabotage and I mess things up
Always in my feelings and my head too much, yeah
But I don't always wanna be a sad fuck
Looking for excuses to not show up
Always feeling like I'm never good enough, yeah
I don't always wanna be a sad fuck
Self sabotage and I mess things up
Always in my feelings and my head too much, yeah
But I don't always wanna be a sad fuck
Looking for excuses to not show up
Always feeling like I'm never good enough, yeah
I don't always wanna be a sad fuck

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What to say haha
Have you ever noticed when you wallow in self-hate? I mean, I know I'm not perfect. I know I make mistakes. But sometimes, I still end up harsh with myself. Not accepting certain failures. I tell myself that I can just grow to be a better person. I dont have to forgive myself just yet but someday, I tell myself I would. I'm not there yet. But someday, perhaps I will. That's why, I think it's fine, passing the days like clouds floating through the horizon.

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    1. AliceShiki Sep 18, 2023
      I'm glad to hear that! *hugs*

      And things are getting better for me too! \(^^)/

      I am taking anti-depressants though, but like... I'm glad I am, because they're helping a lot.

      Also, I found out I had a severe defficiency in Vitamin D, so I'm taking pills to help me out with that (the highest weekly dosage though... I was reeaaaaaally lacking on Vitamin D).

      Things have improved a lot since I started taking those two! Sometimes you just need to accept you need meds help, I guess~

      And like... Well, I'm very reticent about taking meds for this kind of thing, but... Giving in and deciding to give them a shot is the best choice I made.
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    2. Bad Storm Sep 18, 2023
      @AliceShiki YUS! FIGHTINGGG!! xD
      I think I'm getting better with it tho. Hope you are too
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    3. AliceShiki Sep 18, 2023
      It's always sad when people look down on the things that are hurting us instead of showing empathy... T.T

      Try your best, Stormy! One step at a time towards a brighter future! >.<

      Don't be too harsh on yourself if you can. We always criticize ourselves way too much, and it can be a serious blow to our self-esteem... T.T
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    4. GonZ555 Sep 18, 2023
      *steal song*
    5. Gandire Alea Sep 18, 2023
      Change your socks
    6. Bad Storm Sep 18, 2023
    7. yorstruly Sep 18, 2023
      what is this? *shock*
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