If yes, how so? If no, what makes you think so? Spoiler: me answering my own questions again, don't mind I'd say yes. I feel a lot more of a hermit than I used to be. And a lot more cynic too but that one I do feel I don't show much to others beyond a certain few. As time also pass by, I feel that I'm losing more and more connections with people. Everyone going on their own way, getting further and further from each other. Life feels a lot more lonely. And even I feel tired of being hurt by things I can't control but what can I do, that's just how life is. you can try and try but others won't necessarily try as much as you do.
I remember I have went to sleep one human person and woke up with half of my brain parasitized by an interdimensional Galactic dictator Hamster Overlord once
I'm content but I won't mind changes I’m contented with my life, but I still want to improve and do more fun things
I'm fairly sure I suck as a human being. I don't know if it's my inner voice or the voice of others. But that's life.
Yep. I think I changed. I think I'm more self-aware and I'm more concious of how I act, what I say, how I feel. Also, another notable thing is that I've become more honest. Usually I would things about myself hide because of my ego. I realized that I was the only one who actually really even cared lolol and it didn't really matter to others. An example is like how I get sad when people forget about my birthday. I used to never tell anyone when my birthday is cause I get sad when I know that they know, but they just simply forget. And I pretend that I don't care. Now, I just... I tell my friends now that I'm super excited for my birthday and whatnot. They may fun of me because of it but not in a bad way you know? Of course, when they forget it, I still get hurt, but I don't fool myself anymore by making up excuses for others. Yeah they forgot, big deal, they are still very good people that have their own lives. Well yeah, I'm more honest and less secretive now. I also think I've become more mature
Honesty is a good trait. Especially for people like me who really have a hard time grasping what other people find important. I could be harsh with my words and action and I wouldn't even know I'm stepping on someone else's foot because they are keeping quiet... I think I know your birthday *thinking pose*
Im not happy. The flesh is weak. Im just trying to survive until technology gets to a point that i can make myself an android. This video covers what i want to become.
*nods nods* I've always been secretive ever since I can remember I am indeed that type that just smiles even when people are already grinding onto my foot lolol Even now I still unknowingly slip into pretending and keeping secrets. So yeah~ Being honest actually takes a load off my chest and I also appreciate it when people are honest and straightforward with me too! I admire those types of people . Hmm~ I think you do
You are funny Lessgo! Road to self improvement! I, personally find that I, too, have a really hard time grasping what other people thinking. Sometimes I am extremely worried that I made a wrong impression on one of my close friends or they would think of me less because of something I did, while I did not even know about it, so I cannot help. Do you feel like that too sometimes? LOOOL. I see, but despite that you can already start your journey by learning to speak in binary!
Don't worry, it's fine not to be honest about everything. Trust is after all earned! Was it in June? Overthinking can eat you up inside. That's why some people implode because instead of letting out what's troubling them, they bury it more. One day, they just can't take it anymore. Personally, I just hope i could be the kind of person people are willing to trust. I know it's really hard to be honest and open.
To be honest, I find that I am not at all sure whether I am truly changing. I am 1000 percent sure that I am changing in many areas. I get a little smarter, a little more aware of my faults and the next time, I make sure to not repeat mistakes, which I was aware about. Of course it does not always work that way, but I can feel I become a little better in an area I want to. BUT. On the one hand, I have solid proof that something in me has changed so drastically, that I can just look at that example and say WHAT changed. On the other hand, I am always feeling unsure, because I feel that actually, at my core, nothing has changed. My vices are still mine, I just control some of them a little better, my good sides are still the same, they are just a little tainted with my fears. And all of my "changes" they only add up on what I already have. That is: my vices and my good sides. Sometimes detractin from my good sides and adding on to my vices. Sometimes the other way around. But fundamentally, what I feel are my vices and good sides, they are not actually changing in any way...
I remember reading a research about whether people noticed they changed. I think a short summary of it was that 1) people know that they changed. at the same time, 2) they underestimated how much they changed.
I'm half the man I used to be. When you grow older, reality will hit you hard and you will realise just how mediocre you are.